http://idealistik.blogdrive.com/ idealistik Fri, 13 Apr 2007 12:50:00 PDT http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2007. Computers & Internet Arts Entertainment http://idealistik.blogdrive.com/archive/708.html Fri, 13 Apr 2007 20:40:38 GMT my life on maui was okay. it was boring because i didn't have a partner like i do here. ive always wanted to move to vegas because i want to experience whats out there and especially that it was cheaper to live. although i never expected to feel this way. i don't know if its because im pregnant and im going through all these emotions. when i think about it i'd rather be in hawaii. i really miss my family especially my mom the most. when i came here the ss and dmv makes things so difficult for me. this pregnancy makes me feel so tired and lazy and that's why im out of work for 2 weeks now. i... (more) http://idealistik.blogdrive.com/archive/702.html Mon, 15 Jan 2007 07:08:25 GMT anyways i got home after 11 last night because my mom was talking alot after the prayer last night. my honey and i were not in good terms because we didnt talk much yesterday. well we are ok now. belle woke me up around 4 am because she needed to borrow cash for brandon's dui. well i went to safeway to pick up my eye medicine because its been 7 days and it's still there. i didn't buy it last tuesday because i figured it would go away by this weekend. i was wrong so i just paid the $20 for my antibiotic. anyways if ever i get it again i can still use the medicine until next year. well i... (more) http://idealistik.blogdrive.com/archive/701.html Fri, 12 Jan 2007 09:36:40 GMT i should be sleeping now, but im up because im burning a dvd. i should have done that earlier but anyway. my honey is on the phone sleeping and snoring so loud as always. he's such a hardworking man. i miss him and i love him so much. i wish i was there with him to see him in the morning and be with him at night. im so bloated right now because i have mines. i hate periods. i have been steady with my weight since for a few months now. i just need to do some crunches. my stomach looks awful. anyways, my eye stye is finally healing. i really want it to go away because it looks gross and im... (more) http://idealistik.blogdrive.com/archive/675.html Wed, 01 Nov 2006 07:22:26 GMT damn it everything i typed up got erased. i hate when that happens. anyways, im home on halloween night. i usually go with my cousins and their kids but i didn't want to drive becuz gas is low. it looks like its going to rain and i feel alone. if i could move to vegas with him now i would. i just can't go there with debts burdening me. and i need my job to pay that off and save just in case i dont get a job that soon. i have to get one when im there because i will need to pay bills and medical. im thinking after the treatment so hopefully by april i can move there. i pray that... (more) http://idealistik.blogdrive.com/archive/669.html Sat, 21 Oct 2006 09:12:08 GMT in 13 days ill be in vegas with my honey. after 4 and half months of talking we are finally going to be together. im excited to see him, nervous to meet the future inlaws and scared of what will happen after. i know for sure that i will be moving to vegas next year. i want to start my new life with him. im tired of my boring life here at home. i would love for him to be here but then i would want our own place because my room is too small for us. if i wanted to make my dreams come true. it could happen if i choose to make it happen. to be married at 25, have a baby and our own place. it... (more) http://idealistik.blogdrive.com/archive/664.html Fri, 13 Oct 2006 05:12:52 GMT there is something that he doesn't know but i didn't lie to him i just didn't tell him. that is my maiden name. i want to tell him but im going to wait when i am with him in november. i know he'll be sad and upset that i kept it from him. i told myself that i wll change it when i get remarried. if he ask why did i keep it.well , i kept it because i thought we would get back together in the future but that's not going to happen because i want to be with him, his last name is better than mines. and just don't like my names together because it sounds ugly and fob.when i do have his child.... (more) http://idealistik.blogdrive.com/archive/658.html Sun, 01 Oct 2006 23:38:15 GMT i woke up around 9 and i had a good nite's sleep. i slept early though. anyways, i ate breakfast. still doing my laundry. when im done with that, im going to shower and head to the store for a few hours. i talked to him and i found out a few things about him that made me think about the future plans we made. i still want to go but i don't know about that. i would want to but then i dont want to because im not financially ready and i want to be with him through the whole time. and he can't be here. im not really ready to move but my feelings change though so im confused. so i just had my... (more) http://idealistik.blogdrive.com/archive/656.html Sat, 30 Sep 2006 07:59:38 GMT so i was early to work today. we moved our stuffs into our new place i was at work i got to the bank late because i had to wait for my computer set up. i left work around 745. i can't believe that the past called me at work and now. i text my honey and called him but he's not answering me. hes sleeping i think. i miss him. im bored so thats why im talking to my past. i've decided this year im not going to the fair. im going to save my money and be away from crowds. anyways, i really wanted to get a 2nd job on the weekends but im going to vegas on november but maybe ill try.... (more) http://idealistik.blogdrive.com/archive/654.html Sun, 24 Sep 2006 13:00:08 GMT we have been talking for over 4 months. and im finally going to see him sooner than i expected. the sooner the better of course. anyways, today i woke up around 10 and had my coffee. ate watch tv. did my laundry. talked to him. i know i wasn't going out so i finally decided to workout on the treadmill for 20 min. so i did and im glad i have my ipod. i couldn't do 300 crunches because i didn't really have food in me. anyways, i've been wanting to visit lisa and jonah because i bought him milk and bottles to help her out w/the baby. anyways, i called lisa and told her that im going to... (more) http://idealistik.blogdrive.com/archive/650.html Mon, 18 Sep 2006 09:07:48 GMT so i came home around after 3 this morn. slept by 4. woke up by 12. i finally made coffee and it was good. dipped w/3 toasted pandesal. then i ate rice and bacon since i missed breakfast. anyways, i did my laundry. he was sad because i was out last night. i went to church tonight belle picked me up w/damien by 530. went home and ate saimin for dinner. i accomplished 2 things this weekend. i got rid of the kanji sticker on friday night and got my TFC to work on my dvr on saturday morning. now i can record my shows and workout. i have to or i'll just have to go back to my old diet which is... (more)